Last night I had my first triggery experience in a while. It was also the first time I saw my current boyfriend get drunk. He was stumbly, it was cute, we got busy, and he was more aggressive and vocal in bed than usual. It was great. It was fun. But it reminded me of my Bad Relationship™. And I didn't say anything because I didn't want to interrupt my own pleasure.
I pushed down the unease. It bubbled back up a few times. And then it didn't. And then I was okay.
Will it ever really be over?