Last night I had my first triggery experience in a while. It was also the first time I saw my current boyfriend get drunk. He was stumbly, it was cute, we got busy, and he was more aggressive and vocal in bed than usual. It was great. It was fun. But it reminded me of my Bad Relationship™. And I didn't say anything because I didn't want to interrupt my own pleasure.

I pushed down the unease. It bubbled back up a few times. And then it didn't. And then I was okay.

Will it ever really be over?


John on Fri, 2012-10-26 01:59

Yes, but not because it isn't with you anymore. The thing about these torments is that you slip into them but you'll come out of them as well, eventually. Even when you know it's coming again, the transient nature of pain is your saving grace.

I've found meditation to be helpful in my own struggle, perhaps it might be of some use to you.

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